I did not expect this …
I did not expect this
I did not expect to fall so easily
Shock enmeshed with surprise
That I had fallen in love
How could this be
I still cannot believe
Do my senses deceive?
Yet in tenterhooks, I open
Myself, my heart, my soul
To this blessed joy
All the wonderment
Have finally come to bear
On my once desolate existence
Finally I am truly happy
Yet like a shooting star
Does light swiftly extinguish
Dying embers of cinder
Hard black smoldering coal
Death encroaches and surrounds
My heart resonates no longer
No more, nothing
Only an emptiness
So filled with a void
That could swallow an entire soul
Hurt surrounds me
Totally and all encompassing
The pain seems unbearable
But I will strive and survive
It is a joke really cos
It hurts, it hurts, it hurts
Slip into the shadows
Cover me with the blackness
I do not want to feel anymore
Let cold, heartless ice be Me
Drive out warmth of sunshine
Cos it has no meaning anymore
Life is itself so meaningless
So myself dissolve into nothingness
I did not expect this
I did not expect to fail so easily
PS: Don’t know why I published this … perhaps it just me seeking closure for events past.
