Meandering whims of a curious mind

Dear Diary,

Well, I’ve finally come to the end of the "clubbing" road. No more weekly jaunts to my fav hang-out Obar … Yeah, yeah … I’m sure I’ll hear tons of snickering and an equal amount of jibes for my weak umpteenth attempt to let go of my nocturnal habits.

This time though, I’m certain. I will miss the people I’ve made friends in Obar as well as the endless memories garnered through my drunken stupor. But its time to move on to make something of my life. (As if leaving Obar will a difference, I’m sure some would say) Nonetheless, this few months has been a renaissance for me … re-priotizing my goals and cherishing what should have been important a long time ago.

Spending more time with family, catching up with long lost (and true) friends, making the effort to finish everything that I start (no matter how long it takes) and never stop learning. It’s time (long overdue anyway) that clubbing makes way for more enriching and healthy ventures … and a far fuller life.

I’d guess Obar\Clubbing through all its experience served to be the epitome of all that I didn’t want to be … to say a lot of things but doing nothing … this of course, does not speak ill of those who still and will probably forever frequent there (hehe) .. but rather a reflection of my own attitude in life … if I felt sad, I’d go Obar, if I felt happy, I’d go Obar, if I had nothing to do, I’d go Obar …Aye … Obar has and will always be an epicentre in this period of wackiness and wildly intoxicating part of my history.

But its time to slow down … to make plans … to strive (I know I’m a bit late) … its time to cast away the veil of mediocrity and exceed my potential … to fly. So when I’m sad, I’ll figure my lesson and be stronger from it, rather than drown myself in alcoholic nirvana (haha)… when I’m happy, I’ll call friends and family to share in my joy and in return build stronger and lasting relationships with those I hold dear and when I have nothing to do, I will improve myself to be the best that I can ever be. I believe I have relaxed enough, partied enough, bummed around enough to last me a long while …

I’m leaving my clubbing days and welcoming a new era of self discovery .. one that is more settling and hopefully with far more permanence in substantiating my own existence .. that is to leave a fond (and honourable) legacy to my future decendants (if that ever happens … so who wants an old 30-year old fuddy duddy).

Hello World, I’m back! Onward and beyond! (Hmm, I think that’s Star Trek)

Harry Emerson Fosdick:

"To laugh often and love much;
To win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children;
To earn the approbation of honest critics;
To appreciate beauty; to give one’s self;
To know that even  one life has breathed easier because you  have lived that is to have succeeded"

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